Conversation is a killer!

Not having a good day. I guess the truth is I find conversation so difficult. I don't have an easy style, I can't just go up to people and start talking. As for casual remarks and flirty lines, I feel i really need to know the person first so I can be a little stand-offish. partly cos I feel each person is different and deserves respect, and partly cos I figure that they wouldn't want a guy like me being friendly. not talking making offensive or salacious remarks, just everyday conversation I find so very difficult.

Even good friends I find difficult holding conversation with once I'm outside my comfort zone. makes me come across as boring which i guess I am. Just one quirk that's difficult to deal with.

Wish i knew the secret, knew how to tell if someone wants you to approach and talk to them. When it comes to body language I'm completely dyslexic. So i presume they don't unless they make it staggeringl;y obvious, like coming and talking to me.

Guess I'm just wierd.

Call To Arms - Or At Least To Voices!

Angry post this, as it really does upset and annoy me that an entire section of society can be so easily and willfully discriminated against and yet the Government in America seem unwilling to budge.

The need for hate crime legislation in America is sad because it means they must acknowledge that hate crimes go on. But they do, and so legislation is needed. It is time for all people of conscience to stand up for those who are attacked merely for being different. Be it difference in gender, race, physical or mental ability, sexual orientation or religion, hate crimes are a blight on our world.

So I don't care who you are or where you are from or how much influence you ahve on your community or the world at large. get out there and start making the change. This legislation must pass. Help it Please!

Inspiration - so hard to come by!

Trying to get my head into a writing state as I have a scenario for Castle Falkenstein to finish off for a game in June.

It should be a good game as i find CF a great source of scenarios and by setting in America I'm allowing some new jokes to enter (the fact that i am naming all the soldiers in the fort near las Vegas after characters in CSI will get a chuckle or two).

It is easily the best RPG system I own. the others I use regularly are two horror games: Call of Cthulhu and the mighty Kult. I enjoy writing as it helps focus my mind and helps me forget other things. Just hard to get started. Partly cos it not being my computer i know I only have limited time and that doesn't motivate and cos i don't have a computer or internet o my own the net fascinates me. maybe when i'm all comped up the net will be less attractive and I can re-focus. Until then i will work as much as I can.